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Shame on me....it has been awhile. Updates?? Well, I am STILL pregnant, STILL depressed but now at least part of my family is back from their travels. No, not Jason but Mom and Aaron have returned safely and intact from their Vancouver Island trip. INTACT?? you say...yes, I was worried. My Mother, brother and his girlfriend, Korinia, took a trip to Campbell River, BC. I talked them into just flying to Seattle and renting a car to go the rest of the way because it would save them about $350 per person. But as the time neared the 'road trip' idea was starting to worry me. My Mother is not the best at travelling and tends to 'flip out' and my brother is not the most tactful and handling her 'flip outs'....hehe. But I am happy to report that I didn't see any noticeable damage upon their return. Thank God for TomTom.

Jason is now in Omaha, Nebraska working for the same company. He is supposed to fly back home this weekend on the District Attorney's dime because he is a witness for an old case he handled when he was with the police department. I just hope that works out.

I went to the Doctor yesterday and although she had said that she would schedule me for induction on the 14th she has retracted her statement. She wants to see how 'things go'. That statement was followed up with the comment that she really didn't want me to go much longer because she is sure little Jae is already 8 lbs. This whole waiting to see how 'things go' crap is really weighing on me....haha, no pun intended. I truly believe that if left to my bodies own time table I would have 10 lbs babies. Both Cody and Lorelei were induced so the thought that my body can actually GO INTO LABOR is questionable. I know, I know, women have been doing this from the start of creation and the body DOES know what to do......but things have been going WRONG with labor since the start of creation.

Take into consideration that this is coming from a cranky pregnant woman, just venting. OH and the best part was the comment from the doctor (in front of a pretty cute intern) that I should have LOTS of SEX this week!! HA....1) Husband gone 2)Awkward, non sexy pregnant woman 3) Even if/when the husband does come home.....he's not sure about ALL THAT. AND you just made the cute intern blush.

Afternoon trip to Surfside Beach

After most of the day sitting in the house I decided it was time for an outing. So I packed up Lorelei and we headed down to the beach. Being that it is only 20 minutes away I don't know why we don't go more often. She absolutely loved it and had a blast. This little one has no fear what so ever!

I remember the first time I took Cody to the beach. My friend Jill had come down to visit and we decided to go to the water. Cody was about 2 years old and hadn't been to the gulf. He enjoyed the sand but when the waves would come in he would run, run, run!! It was too cute.

I didn't bring my camera so I took a few shots with my phone. After I sent them to Jason and Cody I proceeded to drop my phone in the water........GREAT. It just became an expensive trip to the beach!!

I wish I had little Lorelei's fearlessness of the water because as she was rolling around I was steadily looking out for DANGER. You know the kind that comes in little crabs and those dangerous little fish.

Potty training??

For the last week or so every time I get Lorelei (20 months) out of bed she heads straight for her diapers and insists I change hers. Not that I wouldn't anyway but now she is adamant. Also, earlier as I was working on the computer she comes over with a clean diaper. Just as I was wondering, why?, I got a good whiff of her. Does this mean she is ready for potty training? Or does it mean she is just now getting bothered by the mess? I know there are some children/babies that cry when they are dirty but neither of my children has EVER been bothered by it, until now.

Ramblings of a genius

I know that I am good at something. No, I take that back, I know I am a GENIUS at SOMETHING! Now, I don't know what it is just yet. I once thought that I was a good drawer (is that correct English?), I also used to enjoy painting with my Grandma. But was I good?? I have a terrible characteristic that if I am not REALLY good at something right off the bat then I quit. I was pretty good at playing the piano, flute and piccolo...but was I great? Well, no because I was horrible at practice. But that tells me I could have been great because I did really well with NO practice. Shame on me. Why do I do this? Am I afraid that if I try really hard and fail I will be devastated? How dumb is that? So I am thinking that maybe I am good at writing. And then I read (daily) a blog by Heather Armstrong http://www.dooce.com/ and feel I am not witty enough or all that interesting. But I am not really doing this for anyone but me. I shouldn't compare myself to anyone....good one.

My ex called me today and said he had taken Cody to the doctor about his eye and the cough he has had. Come to find out (something I already knew) Cody doesn't have reoccurring pink eye but a blocked tear duct. Something I had come to think was possible but after over $1,000 spent at the doctors since October (on poor Code man's eyes) I figured it was Butchy's turn. Apparently Cody was allergic to the antibiotics that the doctors were giving him and it blocked his draining duct.

Recently my long distance husband has been sending me various lude pictures/cartoons etc via phone which a friend of his keeps sending him. Makes me wonder what is on his mind.....makes me wonder why his friend (a guy) keeps sending him these things...lol. Truly, why do guys find these things so interesting. For instance one is called 'Redneck birth control' and it is a picture of a girls 'privates' covered in duct tape. Personally, I am afraid for this poor girl, that is a place where duct tape should not go, in fact I see a lawsuit coming! Maybe for these poor folks that thought this would be funny Duct tape should come with a warning......"can be harmful to genitalia". However I might find humor in seeing a guys genitalia, testicles and projection, wrapped in this.......

That's IT!!! I am a genius......now to find a willing participant and some duct tape....

Last Ball Game

Today was Cody's last ball game....and they lost.... 10 - 0. Yep that is the kind of loss that just pours salt in the wounds. My poor little ball player was moping. For one thing he has be in the outfield all season. He is a good player, and I am not just being a Mom. I don't see why or how any of the other kids were any better at infield than Cody would be. I guess that is what he gets for me not being a Coach.

Oh and to add...we broke the temperature record for May.....95 degrees. Try chasing a 1 1/2 year old at a ball field in that weather!!

Another trip to New Braunfels

Wow am I tired...so why am I writing?? Well because if I don't do it now it may be a week before I post again.

This last weekend I rode up with my Mother-in-law Tina, and Lorelei to see Jason. The place that he has been staying at is so neat but unfortunately they can't afford the summer rates. So he will be moving to a trailer park in town.

I mostly ran around town with Tina, protesting her appraisal and getting the CORRECT plat of their property in Canyon Lake (totally long drawn out fiasco that I won't get into). Then running around Comal County with Tina, Jason and Lorelei to get measurements on their property.....that we didn't get. ANYWAY, it was nice to see my husband even if I didn't get to communicate with him much. And Lorelei was stuck to Daddy at all times.

The 2.5 hour trip home.......oh wait it was 3.25 hours because some people believe going through Wharton and west Columbia is ALWAYS quicker....was interesting. Let's just say I really only travel well with a select few people...I truly put the blame on me...I shouldn't be so temperamental. It is not a poor reflection on my company. HEY, I am pregnant!! I was told I should use that excuse as much as possible...this is suiting.

The 'Dog run' between the two living/bedroom areas...and Lorelei admiring the water fountain

The entrance to the house

The Entrance, inside.....and Lorelei admiring the rocks

the side of the house....the rock wall is the wall surrounding the shower/bath for the additional apartment.

the outside shower and bath

It's official...

I am depressed. I don't even have the urge to read....I love reading.....
I hope this is over soon.

How permanent?

Well. We had a hail storm last night followed by quite a bit of rain. My garden is in critical condition.

Jason is away for work and I probably won't see him for a few weeks. Today he is looking for a place to park his trailer and he stopped by an apartment building. He really liked it and said he would be sharing it with his best friend if they decided to do that. This really bothered me. I am not too sure why other than it seemed so permanent. He did say this job will be longer than first thought. It just started and so it will be around a year. He also commented on us moving there which is fine other than in the coming months I will be needing my family and friends help and moving up there will not be conducive to that. I worry if our relationship can withstand this separation. It has before, I know, but this time it is a little different. Or at least it feels different.

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Wow...last post was a little intense. Let me clear a little up. I do love my Mother and through the years I have given her the benefit of the doubt. I also know that I will and probably have made some parental mistakes of my own. But the big thing here is evolution. Not that I am a better person than my Mother, I'm not, I want to learn from my Mother's mistakes and I also would like my Mother to learn from hers. BUT she refuses to see that she has made any. I know I can't change that and it is not my job to but my struggle is accepting that.

I have been reading A New Earth by Tolle and I have learned a lot from it. I have mostly learned that I have a lot to learn!! Hehe. That sounds a little redundant. It makes a lot of sense when it comes to my interactions with others and why I react/act the way I do. I highly recommend it. There is a protest against this book saying that it is anti-christian but I disagree. Christians are feeling threatened because it teaches you to look beyond 'Religion'. That if we define ourselves through solely through a religion we miss what God is truly trying to teach us.

Anyway, there is some signs of life in my Garden..very exciting. Although my husbands sprinkler sabotage might have washed some of my seeds to the side.

My Black Thumb

Today when I brought my son to school I saw that I finally had roses on my rose bush!! I was so excited. Now some people might wonder why....you see, I have very bad luck with growing things. I have attention deficit disorder and tend to forget to do things such as water them, tend to them, remember that I have them. Not to mention there have been mishaps like my husband over fertilizing the garden we tried a few years ago and then forgetting to turn off the sprinkler and drowning the last remaining survivors.

So this year, well last week, we started another garden. Jason did a lot of work tilling up the dirt and putting up a hot wire fence around it so that the goats and our pony don't get at it. I hope it works since he has already left the sprinkler going on it for an entire day last Saturday.

Wait!! Who can't grow things?? hehe. I have been sabotaged! Just kidding.

Another example of my black thumb; I killed a bamboo plant. Yes, you know those plants where they just sit in water, so you just need to keep WATER in the bowl?? DEAD. I have killed a cactus or should I say cacti?

Needless to say I REALLY want to succeed. It could be because of the fact that a brand new PLANT NURSERY has moved in across the Highway from us and it looks so pretty!

ANYWAY....wish me luck.

Rambling

Today...was just another day, really. More laundry for me to do and although I know there was 24 hours in this day I can't say I got much done. Jason and I went to lunch with my Best friend and another friend of ours. It was nice to sit and talk...even if the waitress did suck. The girls, Lorelei and Anna (5weeks apart) ate their share of chips, queso, rice and beans. It was a beautiful day around 75 deg Fahrenheit and not a cloud in the sky. I am currently suffering from a sunburn that I acquired yesterday when I sat by Lorelei's pool and watched her play. So not only is my big prego belly it's normal uncomfortable but it hurts too...yes, I had a sports bra on...SPORTING the belly!!

So how is that for rambling??

Trying to be a better person

With all of the talk today of 'going green' and the influx of cancer or diseases of the like I am trying to become more responsible. I bought the reusable bags from Kroger's to put my groceries in but so far I have forgotten to bring them when I go shopping 4 out of 6 trips. I am trying to use 'all natural' or 'organic' products more but being on a tight budget it is sometimes hard to justify the extra cost.

Now don't get me wrong, as of yet I am not completely sold on this 'Global Warming' hype. Not that I don't believe that the world is getting warmer but just that I have questions as to whether it is a natural process or our doing. I mean there was an ice age at one time and we have been getting warmer ever since so.....whose fault is that?? Do I think we are using up too much of our natural resources? Definitely. Can we be more earth conscience? Absolutely. Are the ice caps melting solely because of us? I just don't think so.

In our City we just recently (meaning couple of months ago) just started a recycling pick up. Great, finally, and to my surprise I see a lot of those blue bags out on the pick up days.

So, I am working on it. I think that is a start but I hope that I don't become a lunatic about it. Or should I?

Cody's School Programme

Well my son, Cody, was in his school programme and I am soooo proud!!

What am I doing?

I sit here typing like I have nothing else to do. I should be taking advantage of Lorelei being asleep and cleaning but nope....wasting time.

I decided I needed an outlet, maybe there were other Moms/girls etc.. out there looking for meaning or purpose. My blog title? Why not Just an Ordinary Mom?? Well, because I still feel like just a girl. I am a Mom and love it but I don't want to define myself as that. I don't work outside the home anymore, long story which I am not ready to discuss, but I am also finding it hard to do any work IN the house. THAT'S RIGHT, my home is a MESS! And I can't seem to find the motivation to clean it.

I hope that I keep this writing up, I think I have something to say, share or Whatever.