Monday, February 8, 2010

"miracle of the five loaves and two fish"

My husband and I have lived paycheck to paycheck for the last 3 years. Always behind, always stressed. But he has always seemed to come through for us. Because of my immigration problems I haven't been able to work for the last 3 years. Now don't think that I am lazy or don't want to work, I have worked since I was 15 years old and at times I had two or three jobs going. I never saw myself as the stay-at-home Mom but this is where fate has put me and I am trying to do my best at it. However; I have realized lately that I had the wrong mindset. I am not sure of how to explain that more thoroughly. I believe now that God wants me to not only succeed at this job but excel, I am supposed to learn something here.

Jason lost his job at the beginning of January. The place he worked just didn't have the business coming in and needed a reduction of force. This is a problem for people like us who, as I said before, live paycheck to paycheck. You would think, this being the beginning of February, that we were drowning.....we're not. Now, the phone bill is due and so in the utilities but we have the money to pay that. I have prayed from day one giving thanks for the blessing we have and to bring us through this and so far God has. I have no reason to believe that it will end anytime soon. It brings to mind the Miracle of the five loaves and two fish.... We have brought to God our meager finances and placed them in his hands......and our basket is not empty yet.

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